Professional Photography Editing

I started compiling several adobe official training/ text books towards the end of last year.  I completed two or three modules of the first book through the winter and used skills some of the skills learned from it to restore a vintage photograph of myself. I purposely chose this file for it containing a challenging number of defects; challenges to overcome in the restoration process.

Visible defects include; discolouration and light bleed; focus issues; creases, scan-scaling; scuffs and scratches:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Note, with gauging that the focus issues were inherent of the original image, I opted for a darker foreground, while aiming to increase pixel intensity in the mask of the image. This, in blending pixilation with the blurred focus: A style more often used with arty adaptions of my photographs.

Through the winter months, other priorities took precedence over this activity, keeping my progress to a minimum. I’ve set no earnest pace, but as we move into the new tax year, and with the install of additional compliment resource, I look forward to improving my staying power for this kind of portfolio-complimenting modular study.

Since resuming, I am about a third of the way through the Photoshop text book.

Rite of Passage

Not excluding events of the last three years surrounding me, in recent weeks, I have been subjected to a type of treatment that has been both degrading and humiliating.

This, by way of digital marketing of many kinds of legal entities in the public domain and also via media prowess across the United Kingdom. I believe this campaign intended to punish me for speaking out against crimes against myself.

While some pertain that their campaigns focused on me to be light-hearted, action clearly contravenes article three of the European Convention on Human Rights: Freedom from torture and inhuman or degrading treatment.

In forcing engagement based on the matters; somewhat a workload for me to resolve, I believe these actions also breach article four: Freedom from slavery and forced labour.

That which I refer to includes the negative disposition of private and third sector legal entities, whom have treated me inhumanly, via marketing negative depictions of myself, commonly read by their target audiences as depictions of myself. This, via digital marketing campaigns in the first quarter of 2018.

I believe this course of action signalled to some operating within the UK broadcast and media industries that it is ‘ok to treat me like so’. Some within those industries seem to have mirrored the negative depictions of myself, and agreed, by way of repeating such action, that I should be treated inhumanly as some form of personal punishment or vendetta against me. This, I believe, in speaking out against so many legal entities violating my rights over a number of years.

I have protested my being publicised nationwide for three years in the first place, and from the outset of it having happened, to my knowledge, in the Spring of 2015. In itself, this has contravened many of my rights as set out in the European Convention on Human Rights.

 

Mental Matters

In January, I was referred to Stockport Health Minds by my GP. Healthy Minds were soon in contact with me, informing me that their service was over-subscribed, and that it would be quicker to gain access to mental health services via referral to Stockport psychological wellbeing.

I was referred to Stockport psychological wellbeing services on 24th January. They were soon in contact with me, in arranging a telephone assessment for the 12th February. However, the appointment was quickly re-arranged following the first having failed; again, due to over-subscription to services.

The assessment consists of oral questions which are asked over the telephone. This in ascertaining the type of talking therapy that would be best suited to the needs identified. On completion of the assessment, I was informed that my needs were too complex for their service.

This is usual for me. Post-traumatic stress disorder (with a prevalence of human on human trauma/abuse) requires high intensity cognitive behavioural therapy as opposed to the lower intensity cbt Stockport psychological wellbeing could offer.

I was informed that following the conclusion of the call I would be immediately referred to the Access Team at Stepping Hill NHS Hospital. Indeed, a mental health nurse from the team rang me the following day.

Following a robust discussion, and in compare with traditional notes through the years I had been trying to access support, it was her professional opinion that my symptoms had grown beyond the point of just being enough to see me referred to healthy minds in wait of high intensity cbt.

She went on to refer me to the Stockport Early Intervention Team; a service which intends to intervene people suffering with severe episodes of psychosis; or horrific trauma with symptoms ranging from paranoia to total distrust in people.

The service provides immediate day to day health and social support, at home or at-clinic. This, while also providing pathways to treatments. such as high intensity cbt.

The next day, a community psychiatric nurse from the early intervention team visited me at home. Our initial conversation focused on the traditional causes of my ptsd, my family history, and scenarios permeating in my life at present, leading to present-tense trauma.

Following a full induction to the service, what is entailed and what to expect, she informed me she would telephone me back to make the first of several follow up appointments with myself.

To my surprise, a further unannounced home visit took place on Tuesday 27th February. I was informed that my team had tried to telephone me but could get no answer. This was evidently likely given my mental health had deteriorated to the point of not being fully coherent within my surroundings.

It didn’t take long for it to be identified that I was at risk of self-harm: It having been discovered that I had taken too much medication over a period of two consecutive evenings prior to this home-visit. I was taken by my nurse to Stepping Hill A&E, where I had blood tests as well as a heart trace taken.

Tests found that I was within safe parameters, thus I was moved to a quiet room and visited by a social worker from the hospital’s RAID team. She took information regarding my background, through to my present situation and current feelings.

She sought to clarify what my overdose had meant to me; what was my intention? Was it for self-medicating symptoms which had gotten the better of me, or was it that I was seeking to harm myself? I had no easy answers and so a couple of hours went by in exploring the depths of my mind. I was as intrigued to find an answer as was she.

In conclusion of the session, I was prescribed Diazepam to help relax me in arriving at home post-discharge. Transport was arranged for me. My community care coordinator followed up events several days later in visiting me at home.

I met with consultant psychiatrist Dr Marks, on 8th March. He recorded detailed notes through our conversation. These, in relation to; my current concerns in my life’s context; my environmental and social factors affecting my life; my health and well-being; historical trauma and ptsd; present-tense trauma and ptsd; pertinent symptoms that I am experiencing in the present tense; family history, inclusive of health & social factors; mental health services history; treatment history; medication history; etc.

Prescribing me Risperidone, in desensitising my over-active arousal system in fending off perceived danger, we agreed to meet back in a month and review the progress I have made, or not as the case may be, since the introduction of this medicine.

The following day, I was visited at home by my new care coordinator, trained as a community psychiatric nurse; and replacing my initial care coordinator in the community who I had been dealing with thus-far. She guided me through the on-going care coordination process, following our initial induction and administration stages. In concluding our meeting, we arranged our second appointment together for Thursday 22nd March.

By the Tuesday of the next week I had overdosed off of the initial prescription of that I had been prescribed. I had woken up feeling breathless the morning after the night before. I was checked out in the home by ambulance staff; of whom, I had telephoned for assistance. The paramedics concluded that I should go to hospital for a fuller check-up; their initial tests had found that my blood pressure and pulse were not within normal parameters.

After several hours in hospital, the all clear was given, although, hospital tests had correlated with heart monitoring tests within my home. They said I’d be ok and that the remaining negative side effects from the medication overdose would dissipate naturally.

Thursday soon came by, although it was difficult in being well enough for my second appointment with my care coordinator. Never the less, we followed up from a telephone call that she had made to me, having received news of my A&E visit. She asked me how I feel, and why I had taken a further overdose.

Having given recent overdoses that I had taken a lot of thought, I can only conclude that I had been trying to numb myself from intensity of feeling; and in doing so, gamble with my life to take matters out of my own hands. This has clearly been to the detriment to my physical health, though is indicative of how stressful the preventative factors of the last few years have been in obstructing treatment that was ongoing in 2014. This treatment, regardless of new anxieties and trauma-based experience permeating my entire life since and through.

I answered the question with inquisition in my own reasoning. I sought guidance in nailing a concise point, though such a specific point proved elusive. However, we both concluded that the explosive nature of my ptsd triggers had turned inwards in an implosive way. A scenario which presented with danger, such as verbal or physical conflict, with any form of befriending was being read by myself as a threat. In recent years, my explosive fight mode response to threat had worn itself out. My trigger response to danger was now much more implosive, than it was explosive. I concluded that I could no longer control urges to self-harm.

We agreed to resume my Risperidone prescription via weekly deliveries. This, to avoid generating stockpiles of medication in the home, thus minimising the risk in my reduced control over self-harmful trigger-urges. This began the following day, whereby she personally dropped off my first week’s prescription. A further week passed before I met with my care coordinator again in dropping off my second week’s supply. This arrangement is to continue by mutual consent, until it is judged that I have made sufficient progress with my emotional stability as to be able to administer medicine in safe doses.

Summary.

After several years of failure to access the first identified treatments that I would require from NHS mental health services, I am looking forward to making quick progress in this new-to-me service.

I feel rejuvenated with a health pathway that thus-far better fits my immediate needs. It is also better resourced in meeting challenges head on, negating any preventative factors in accessing treatments.

In summary, I am now in secondary care services. A registered outpatient, my physical and mental health will be regularly monitored, tested, and treated where necessary.

Four Seasons


Quarter One – 2018

Assistance.

In recent weeks, I have introduced a paper-based professional journal into my day to day life. I have been updating it as I work through general activities within my life, including; tasks complete across my workload in life; telephone conference summaries; general attendances; meeting summaries; administrative tasks completed, etc.

The nature of my life at present makes for entries being somewhat clerical and administrative, in that they support my life and its happenings as is. Over time, and with entries evolving into more creative/social aspects, I will use the journal as a source for my live journal here.

Additionally, organised filofax into tabbed calendar quarters and sourced helix portable document folders for carrying personal/administrative documentation on the move.

Credit.

Completed L2 Certificate in Team-Leading via distance learning from UK College. This completes a personal target of complimenting my vitae with the equivalent of eight GCSEs in business-orientated areas that I had set out to achieve from 2014.

Development.

I have also recently started practical workshops, utilising official adobe tuition texts. Additionally, purchased Canon Eos Rebel expanded hand-guide for use in conjunction with Canon 750D DSLR.

In tandem, I have opened an Adobe Student & Teacher Account, installing the full creative suite applications on my desktop, while installing a streamlined study suite only on my surface-notebook. Installed Benq high definition multimedia lcd monitor to compliment this activity.

Digital Data Restructure & Encryption.

Via Windows 10 Professional upgrade, new security settings implemented across the platform. This, to minimise risk associated with the compromising of my data and any third-party data through use of my digital resources. Professional multimedia slaved-hard-drive installed; data encrypted. Secure deletion of obsolete digital data through process.

Desktop rewired during installation; part-dismantled for dust removal, improving cooling performance. Platform specification meets with modern data protection requirements of public, private and third-sector organisations.

Also; refreshed Surface Pro Notebook with manufacturer disc image. Implemented the same security measures as with desktop.

Subscribed to Microsoft office 365 across both platforms aiding synchronicity of files/data. Blu-ray back up rom-discs created of office-based portfolio documentation. Safely destroyed obsolete rom-based back-ups.

General Administration.

Scanned legal correspondence and saved files into newly created digital folder archive. Created an email archive folder, for on-going storage of emails of a personal and/or legal basis. Created a banking folder archive and downloaded seven years current account statements in pdf format. Closed online accounts associated with resourcing over the term of living in Stockport Town Centre.

File folders, archive boxes, and cabinet-based documents needed to be overhauled, organised and streamlined. Lean processes in reducing clutter across all work-space storage solutions/resources. Audio & Tech project cabinets de-cluttered and re-organised, with new tray inserts ordered for live tools and full stationery orders. This, to compliment a complete set of stages across several areas of my workload through the last year.

Online Asset Migration.

Having several different url/hosting-providers was inefficient. Transferred all url domain names owned to one provider, thus improving efficiency in their management. Installation of on-going journal to levitymedia.uk/journal.

Portability.

Sourced Ogio Renegade tech messenger-briefcase. Scoped for carrying Canon DSLR; Kindle; Roland Rubix Audio Interface; Surface Pro; Zoom Digital Audio Recorder. Additionally, purchased lined fabric zip-wallets for audio, camera and computer accessories on the move.

November Term

With the coming of November, the last quarter of the year is fully underway. Through November, I will be working through professional development course texts, as part of my own personal development at home. Having recently bought a new dslr camera, I am eager to move into working with it in conjunction with the training.

Additionally, for around two years, I have taken a number of sector-based qualifications; in recording and accrediting formal business-related skills. I am currently working through the last two assessments of the final qualification in this cycle. I am looking forward to having completed the final assessment in December.

See below for achieved work through October:

05/11/2017
Project Studio

Have begun new professional coursework; Official Adobe Photoshop Materials 2017. Canon digital studio software installed; synced with dslr camera.

28/10/2017
Development

Test-Installation of Roland Rubix 44 interface unit. Reconfigured audio software settings. Exercised the compression and limiting functions, while recording takes. The tasks were completed without issue.

21/10/2017
Accreditation

In continuation of working towards completing an NCFE Level 2 Certificate in Team-Leading, I have completed and passed assignments four of seven.

14/10/2017
Accreditation

In continuation of working towards completing an NCFE Level 2 Certificate in Team-Leading, I have completed and passed assignments three of seven.

Autumn Falls

The closing of conference season marks the natural beginning of Q4 2017.

Through October, I will be working through professional development activity. Included will be the study of business processes while also carrying forward accredited studies. I will update further to advancement through these activities. Key milestones reached and achieved through September are summarised below:

 05/10/2017
Research

Business Research; sourcing data from media sources and via announcements at the annual political party conferences. This, in being fluent with the current position of the political landscape; and also with the latest economic projections.

 28/09/2017
Project Studio

Installation of Yamaha MG10XU ad/da interfacing console. Upgraded digital audio sequencer to the latest version; Propellerhead Reason 9.5.2. Reconfigured internal mixer and devices in conjunction with updating master processing settings.

Outputted single audio frames from computer sequencer and inputted signal through external valve pre-amplification circuit. Simultaneous record of return audio signal, such as drum track arrangements. This, in trialling analog signal-colouring methodology within a digital interfacing context.

Live recording trials with use of Zoom H5 Condenser Microphone Recorder; instrumental and incidental recording exercises carried out using acoustic percussion sets. Exercised Yamaha compressors and equalizers in measuring signal colouring capacity, while through-putting live vocal recording.

Closed-cup mixing with use of Yamaha Reference Headphones. Mixdown trials using archival piece-work material. This, in translating resource specification, to compare with target parameters.

 21/09/2017
Development

Completed recognised Prince2 and Agile training programmes. Online access to official induction materials, with tuition via digital presentation. Vitae credentials updated.

 14/09/2017
Accreditation

Enrolled for tutor-mentored online training. This, in working towards completing an NCFE Level 2 Certificate in Team-Leading; part of the Recognised Qualifications Framework. Assignment one and two of seven completed and passed.

Summer Respite

July marked the arrival of part two of the year, in which I took the opportunity to remove myself from my home environment and into a short period of respite. Although I have been taking the time to enjoy the pleasant weather outside, I have also been using this period to catch up with college assessments, while also refreshing my memory with music theory studies.

In follow of this break, my immediate attention will be on affairs of a personal nature. Specific to requirement within my life, I am exploring the options available to me in implementing tailored professional support mechanisms, spanning the entire scope of my personal and professional life. Following implementation of such mechanisms, I aim to move into a period of personal recuperation.

While taking time to getting comfortable within my life for the medium term, I also hope to be utilising the period in getting familiar with my project studio. I want to sort through, organise and bring forward a decade of bits and pieces in my Levity portfolio. Concurrent to this, I keenly anticipate the use of my Zoom H5 digital audio recorder in sampling organic instruments I own. This, in the building of my own professional high quality accompanying percussion audio banks for use in audio composition production.

In regard to the timetabling of my plans and activities, fluidity is always keyed in, taking into account the evolving political-economic backdrop I am navigating. Thus, I shall keep you informed as to the progress of moving toward these long projected engagements. As it stands, I hope to move into such activity between Q4 2017 and Q1 2018, though as stated, this could change, pending further data through the duration of the current quarter.

Levity.

Leaps & Bounds

Boundaries can be thought of as personal rules governing what we will and will not accept from other persons in any given moment. Particular to the individual, they are tailored by themselves, though are often reinforced in social support networks, when the need to do so arises.

The limits set by boundaries are designed to protect the physical, emotional, mental, psychological and spiritual self from harm. For instance; psychological abuse and manipulation will almost certainly lead to mental distress and have a negative impact on a person’s emotional stability. Beyond these scenarios, such individuals may find it difficult to trust other people, withdrawing from mainstream society or seemingly uncomfortable in the company of others.

Although each person’s boundaries are likely to be somewhat unique, principally, they are protected by law. The most poignant example of this being the case would be in a scenario whereby an individual declines advances of a sexual nature from another individual, while their opposite refuses to acknowledge their limits and goes on to forcibly insist. This, being a primary example of the physical and emotional self being violated; essentially the committing of a serious crime against the individual.

Boundaries are also applicable to working environments. While individuals are required to sign an employment contract when taking up a working role, they are by no means under any legal obligation to carry out duties that they are uncomfortable with. In the most simple of scenarios, this may be apprehension with particular aspects of their role. Support and mediation may help to alleviate the individual’s concerns, but ultimately if the person refuses to carry out duties stated within their employment contract, disciplinary action may ensue.

Disciplinary action can range from the docking of wages to suspension, through to demotion; and in more extreme examples, termination of the employment contract. This being said, these are choices the individual is free to make. With some exceptions, all of us have these options available to us throughout our working lives.

In entering work-based environments, we all do expect, somewhat unconsciously, that our personal boundaries will be respected. Most of us will have at least a rudimentary awareness of our base human rights. For example, if somebody were to hold us against our will, we would intuitively know that this act would violate our human rights; our personal liberty. In law, this would constitute false imprisonment.

Clearly defined boundaries are at the root of all long-lasting relationships in life. I suspect all whom read this article know this to be true, for when somebody within our own life sphere is pushy, abrupt and refuses to take no for an answer in any given scenario, our relationship with them can become increasingly strained over time; or terminated altogether.

Boundaries go where we go. They are with us in the home, on the street, and within working environments. They are present when we go shopping, when we go to the cinema, or when we go for a dance at a nightclub. Boundaries ensure and reinforce a person’s sense of freedom and autonomy in their choices. They also aid in sustaining emotional and psychological well-being.

People may find it difficult to erect proper boundaries. Early on in life, many of us may have been over-relaxed with what we are willing to accept from others. This, in avoiding a potentially confrontational scenario arising. However, over time, and as we grow, it becomes clear to us that boundaries are a vital component of living a more balanced and peaceful life. Any short term negative response in the erecting of them, and the reinforcing of them when required, is far outweighed by negating potential long term negative and damaging scenarios from taking hold within our lives.

Essentially, boundaries are good for our physical and mental health. In my personal and professional opinion, our progress and happiness in life is limited without them.

Levity.

Masculinity, the Art

The modern world is filled with stereotypes of what it is to be a man. For me, to be the best man you can be, is to be yourself. It is to be at one with your inner spirit and while our experiences are part of the sum of the whole, we should not be defined by expectation borne from these experiences. To make use of the box of tools gifted to us in living, is to be confident of our own ability in solving life’s puzzle for ourselves, so as to live content of our capacity to master our own lives. We don’t need a lot, we just need it “right”. Men build things, and long may men continue to.

Be yourself.

Levity.

Important Things

Complex Post-Traumatic. General Anxiety Disorder. Stress Disorder. Major Depression Disorder. Panic Disorder. Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. Seasonal Affective Disorder. Social Anxiety Disorder. These are just some of the labels which are applicable to me, yet I still have further symptoms which I cannot place within the diagnosis criteria of these ‘disorders’. I embrace my mental health conditions, they are the evidence of my victories, my battle scars. Yet, somewhere in the darkness, my identity, my light, is lost.

I am rarely referred to as Levity anymore, yet the majority of people whom know me, are likely to know me as Levity. I am accustomed to hearing myself referred to as Keegan by my oldest and dearest friends. Yet it is a rare occurrence to hear myself referred to as Keegan these days. I am so busy, I rarely can bask in the esteem my closest hold me in.

I am most commonly known for energetic creativity and a happy go lucky approach to life. It used to be said, I light up any room which I walk in to. These days, I feel as though I bring in the cold, and everybody present can feel it. When did my identifiers become disorders? The little things are the important things.

Levity.